Since it’s the new year I figured why not a new blog

The year in pictures

(edit: how can i forget the concerts i’ve been to)

Happy new year’s eve, see you guys in 2011.

Sometimes It Happens

Brian Patten

And sometimes it happens that you are friends and then
You are not friends,
And friendship has passed.
And whole days are lost and among them
A fountain empties itself.

And sometimes it happens that you are loved and then
You are not loved,
And love is past.
And whole days are lost and among them
A fountain empties itself into the grass.

And sometimes you want to speak to her and then
You do not want to speak,
Then the opportunity has passed.
Your dreams flare up, they suddenly vanish.

And also it happens that there is nowhere to go and then
There is somewhere to go,
Then you have bypassed.
And the years flare up and are gone,
Quicker than a minute.

So you have nothing.
You wonder if these things matter and then
As soon you begin to wonder if these things matter
They cease to matter,
And caring is past.
And a fountain empties itself into the grass.

The build up of festive joy on christmas eve died when the crimson tide decided to hit the shores and I spent most of my actual birthday in bed. It has been extremely quiet, no loud parties, no getting wasted, no birthday songs sung(because i’m too unwell to even feel like celebrating, so i asked my parents if i could just go straight to cutting the cake). I feel terrible, and I just cancelled bbq plans with people that I haven’t seen for the longest time and really wanted to meet because I’m feeling too drained(pun totally not intended) and morose.

I hope you are having better festivities than me, for I shall now retreat back to my bed and be away from everyone.

I hope you had a hipsterrific christmas because mine was pretty awesome. Probably the warmest christmas I’ve had. Thank you friends(: And thank you for the christmas gifts/early bday presents lol

Hmm I’m finally 18…what now?

Oh hello again life

So I’ve gone a week without blogging, haven’t got the time to think about anything else except schoolwork. I don’t even know what I should say now.

I am relieved the block has ended though. Yea relief’s the word, not happy. Happiness is no longer felt after each block ends(only for the freshies maybe), because it’s the same thing every month, excitement and energy won’t keep up. Nowadays, it’s more of like, “I’m so relieved I completed assignments on time”. Happy’s not applicable anymore because well, it’s terribly short-lived, so I see no point. Mmm, I’ll save happiness for when I graduate.

Last night was fun while it lasted– twelve people, one bar, several rounds of drinks with dirty names– this verily means I have my social life back(ask me out! ask me out!). It is very sian to be stuck in singapore, all the time.

uh huh.

Burnt out

It is a vicious cycle; the monthly force-feeding of new information and submissions on a weekly basis almost always leaves me burnt out by the end of a block, and I never have enough time to fully recover from the exhaustion. So I always start a new block feeling burnt out and this repeats for the rest of the blocks. Thus I am always feeling burnt out, and this doesn’t aid in learning at all. On the flip side, it impairs cognition.

The block system is flawed. Yes it is.

I want to do everything but at my own pace/without the need for urgency. But as long as school is concerned, this seems impossible. That said, I need another 80 logo sketches for tomorrow’s crit session–and I still maintain my stand that grading by the the number of A4 sheets of sketches we produce is unreasonable–Hitherto I have zero.

Yea, “make it work” I must.

I have friends doing their As and(some of them have their last papers today?)I feel very happy for them when they tell me how they are actually going to survive through it. Like “omg i can’t believe it’s finally the end of As” or “exams are ending soon!” and “i can’t believe i am going to live to say i pulled through As”.

I can’t wait for my turn to say that I can’t believe I made it out of design school alive too, as much as I am ambivalent about graduating. But…I do want to make it through design school without killing myself. And the cousin is going to be graduating in a few months’ time, I can only imagine how school will be without her around.

WordPress’s home page is snowing again– an indication it’s the end of the year(already).